1. Nothing But The Truth2:40
  2. The River2:40
  3. The Fire2:40
  4. Nightmares Of You2:40
  5. Bridges2:30
  6. Complicate Me1:49
  7. How To Love Again2:40
  8. I Murdered Love2:40
  9. Who We Were2:40
  10. Burn1:46
  11. The Ghosts That Haunt My Castle3:09
Nothing But The Truth

Close to the end of days
Afraid, as we’re patiently awaiting to become
Just what we cant be
And though I hope it’ll be okay
The pain is all that still remains from who we were
And who we can’t be

He takes a hard look in the mirror
Should he worry bout his future when todays’ pain seems to feel realer?
Turn a man to a creature, shaking hands made him weaker
Just cuz somebody wants ya, don’t mean somebody needs ya
Follow fates procedure just to have something to blame
Promised better tomorrows’ but still the days are the same
Forever caught in the rain maintain under the storm
Surviving through the night while he struggles to see the dawn
Struggles to prove them wrong spit em out like tobacco
He said he fears no man but he’s scared of his shadow
Keeps the rim of his hat low scared to show his face
So caught up in the sewer you could ask him how the gutter tastes
Escaping to another place maybe there’s still hope through his pain
The will to change till the blood runs cold through his veins
Bold brains turned a man to a slave
Got two feet split between the cell and the grave

Close to the end of days
Afraid, as we’re patiently awaiting to become
Just what we cant be, Just what we cant be
And though I hope it’ll be okay
The pain is all that still remains from who we were
And who we can’t be,
This world will never understand me

He tried to chase the dream but he watches while its leavin
Put himself before the team just to practice his inner demons
His passion never leaves him but he’s failing to produce shit
Passions burn to ashes putting matches to the blueprint
Your nothing until ya prove it it’s stupid to skip through it
They hate him in real life so he’s hiding behind his music
He struggles to improve it stop hiding and put ya armor on
Neglect it till you lose it took for granted till it’s all but gone
Words to choke upon struggle till the hope is gone
Tries to lift the world up but all he gets is broken arms
Said he spoke to gods’ visions through a glass of wine
Tried to change the world but see the only thing that changed was time

Close to the end of days
Afraid, as we’re patiently awaiting to become
Just what we cant be, Just what we cant be
And though I hope it’ll be okay
The pain is all that still remains from who we were
And who we can’t be,
This world will never understand me

The River

Who I am hides behind
Our illusions of potential
And who I’ve been is hard to find
Cuz he’s still searching for credentials
Buried deep always drowning
Like the stones beneath the river
I am cold slowly counting
Different ways to burn these pictures
And we are young until tomorrow
Death will call me when he needs me
Hold your lungs but I won’t follow
Seems that life was never easy
Buried deep always drowning
Like the stones beneath the river
I am cold slowly counting
Different ways to burn these pictures

Called for the man in the glass, for a face not a mask
Everybody I know, everybody but me
Let the water lead home, tell the river I’ve known
How to swim but I’ll drown on my own
I know everybody but me
And the man that I believe to be, don’t believe in me
If fate never finds me let pain learn to guide me
And fallen reminds me that time burns behind me

Should we fail burn the truth
Let’s deny our limitations
Should we fail let’s blame our youth
And let’s design our next creation
Buried deep but i’ll survive
I’m still alive inside my coffin
Incomplete, me and I’ve
Been talking ever so damn often

Called for the man in the glass, for a face not a mask
Everybody I know, everybody but me
Let the water lead home, tell the river I’ve known
How to swim but I’ll drown on my own
I know everybody but me
And the man that I believe to be, don’t believe in me
If fate never finds me let pain learn to guide me
And fallen reminds me that time burns behind me

Excuse my excuses my reasons are lost
And just say goodbye to alibis
I’m tryna find how not to lie
We wade in this water like nothing is wrong
But the truth is I’m flawed
I pretend that I’m strong
And I’m losing direction we can’t swim forever
Let go of your demons or drown our endeavor
May love last for never, may life damn the sinner
We jumped off the edge but we land in the river

Called for the man in the glass, for a face not a mask
Everybody I know, everybody but me
Let the water lead home, tell the river I’ve known
How to swim but I’ll drown on my own
I know everybody but me
And the man that I believe to be, don’t believe in me
If fate never finds me let pain learn to guide me
And fallen reminds me that time burns behind me

The Fire

I’ll follow you into the dark
The things I’ll do to leave my mark
I’ll trade it all for something real
Pack your bags I’ll grab the wheel
And if we crash and if we burn beneath the wreckage
Will we last a couple seconds just to pass along the message
That we lived, that we sinned, that we died among a friend
That we wouldn’t trade the fire for the problems in our head

Accept the position of living that I’ve been given
No rest for my wicked decisions until prison
I slept on my vision and wept for the future
I reach for the distant but fall like the loser I am
That I been since the trophies decayed
Should I end where I stand should I go should I stay
Should I change, who I am as time changes
Should I return the story or keep turning the pages
Back to the wall again at war again with the weight of his anger
All we could’ve been keep saying we’ll save it for later
Procrastinator are you ready to meet your maker
Would you rather burn tonight or let tomorrow break ya

I’ll follow you into the dark
The things I’ll do to leave my mark
I’ll trade it all for something real
Pack your bags I’ll grab the wheel
And if we crash and if we burn beneath the wreckage
Will we last a couple seconds just to pass along the message
That we lived, that we sinned, that we died among a friend
That we wouldn’t trade the fire for the problems in our head

I live like the best but life got the best of me
No friends are left just what’s left of enemies
Bullets slippin through my legacy
Pray for what’s ahead of me
Hope I live longer than kennedy
Seen all types of evil in all kinds of people
Seen a man pay a toll with his soul for a needle
But just cuz you living illegal don’t mean the devil got ya
You can hustle and prosper don’t let em stop ya
Should I continue the shit that I’m into beyond today
All the shit that I lived through is forcing me to move away
From this place from this mess from the stress of living higher
Should I continue or just embrace the fire

I’ll follow you into the dark
The things I’ll do to leave my mark
I’ll trade it all for something real
Pack your bags I’ll grab the wheel
And if we crash and if we burn beneath the wreckage
Will we last a couple seconds just to pass along the message
That we lived, that we sinned, that we died among a friend
That we wouldn’t trade the fire for the problems in our head

Nightmares Of You

You turn your back on every angel
That fell in your lap to try and save you
From the hell you call your fire
From yourself that you admire
I kill your ego I’m a shotgun
When I leave you and your forgotten
Try and see through all our problems
Till I leave you I’m your ghost

You turn your cheek to every stranger
That you’d meet, could’ve been your savior
See you later in the nightmare
You call my fault till I’m not there
Kill my ego be my shotgun
Till I don’t need you and your forgotten
I don’t believe you and all your problems
Till I leave you I’m your ghost

Holding on to it all
Holding on till we fall through the floor of our world that we stall
Just to keep us here just to keep you near
Are you the hope in my nightmare or the ghost that I’ve always feared.

Let’s turn the clocks all upside down
Let’s burn this block and leave this town
behind to die defy disguises
and we’ll play blind to our devices
Let’s bring our egos wherever we go
and let them dance among the people
Are we real or are we see through
Until you die I’ll be your ghost.

Holding on to it all
Holding on till we fall through the floor of our world that we stall
Just to keep us here just to keep you near
Are you the hope in my nightmare or the ghost that I’ve always feared.

Bridges

Here I am still your lady
Living on faith that’s growing thin
Holding me like a child
But boy you’re holding the wild wind
You believe in love forever
But boy we’re standing here on hollow ground
You keep building bridges
And I keep burning them down

The road is long
And I’m so tired
And I don’t know
If I can leave him all alone
But if I should stay
I’d be a liar
And if I go
I’d be doin him wrong
And I know I can’t do that
Cuz I know I could never live with that

Growing weaker every moment
Only you can break these chains
Holding on to what we were boy
While tomorrow patiently waits
You’ll be lost for a while boy
But there will come a time
When you’ll be found
Then you can build your bridges
Without me burning them down

The road is long
And I’m so tired
And I don’t know
If I can leave him all alone
But if I should stay
I’d be a liar
And if I go
I’d be doin him wrong

Take my hand
And I’ll show you the way
You’ll understand
Sometimes love just fades away
It fades away, away, away

The road is long
And I’m so tired
And I don’t know
If I can leave him all alone
But if I should stay
I’d be a liar
And if I go
I’d be doin him wrong
And I know I can’t do that
Cuz I know I could never live with that

Complicate Me

If you’re leaving let me follow
Chasing pain and what we’ve broken
You’re so worried bout tomorrow
That you’re ruining the moment
In the darkness getting loaded
I don’t feel you when I’m faded
Cuz desire built the liar
Anything to get you naked
Anything to make you fake it
I’ve been loved and I’ve been hated
Fuck the consequences stated
I’ll destroy what we’ve created
Cuz the truth is what I made it
Never told you that we’d make it
Wasn’t smart to trust my heart
But never thought that you would break it

A sober view was older news
The truth is I ain’t over you
And if the moment’s hopeless
Maybe we can build a world for two
What you expect a man to do
When no one else compares to you?
And goin crazy ain’t the only thing
That I’m prepared to do
Picture two paths picture two directions
And choosin between the painful truth or my intentions
Cuz I’m tryin baby I’m tryin not to live as fast today
The moment keeps surviving
Does it mean the past has past away?

Don’t you care about nothing
Just cuz nothing is easy
And you’d rather love no one
Before admitting you need me
Believe me
Believe in me
I’m trying hard to rewrite me

To redo we
To redo everything
That we have grown to be
Complicate me

I swear you try and lose me
Look through me before you see me
When I tell you that I love you
I love that you never believe me
When’s the last time it was easy
What’s the last line you remember
Cuz the dark keeps getting darker
Falling harder than November
Different night the same pretenders
Different fight the same contenders
We came from nothing
Creating something new
Like two inventors
But two different agendas
Put the pressure on your future
Would you rather walk alone
Or admit you fell for a loser
I’m trying not to abuse ya
Trying not to confuse ya I’m tryna be the man
That refuses to ever lose ya
Im tryna understand what it takes
To plan tomorrow
Might be living in the moment
But I’m dying in this bottle
So understand me
Understand the man I can’t be
Understand where life is going
Walk a different path then chosen
Walk the path that we have broken
Burn the bridges
That we’ve burned before
The ashes of desire through the fire
Love endures

Don’t you care about nothing
Just cuz nothing is easy
And you’d rather love no one
Before admitting you need me
Believe me
Believe in me
I’m trying hard to rewrite me

To redo we
To redo everything
That we have grown to be
Complicate me

How To Love Again

Love is dangerous
But it’s keeping us alive
Don’t want to be famous
Just want to be with you tonight
Let me hang around let me take you down
If we swim or drown at least we’re off the ground
If I make the cut better cut me in
Let me teach you how to love again

She was walking
Through the darkness just for fun
She was talking
From a heart you couldn’t touch
And when she steps across the line
I guess for me it’s join or die
If she tried leaving me behind
Yes I would join her in the dark

She would walk on fire
Just to learn how much it hurts
And I would be by her side
Trying hard to burn the earth
And when she’s almost lost her mind
I’m next in line let’s lose control
Like every time she cries to feel alive
I’ll hold her through the dark

Love is dangerous
But it’s keeping us alive
Don’t want to be famous
Just want to be with you tonight
Let me hang around let me take you down
If we swim or drown at least we’re off the ground
If I make the cut better cut me in
Let me teach you how to love again

She walks around with pliers
Cutting wires I string up to keep her close
I talk real loud to guide her
But just untie her and follow where she goes
And when she tries to say goodbye
I say good luck and play my part
She tries leaving me behind
But then she joins me in the dark

Love is dangerous
But it’s keeping us alive
Don’t want to be famous
Just want to be with you tonight
Let me hang around let me take you down
If we swim or drown at least we’re off the ground
If I make the cut better cut me in
Let me teach you how to love again

I Murdered Love

Close the shades
And let’s quietly rage
Through the night
We’re okay in the silence
And comfort designed
By the darkness of day
Keep away from
The cracks in my heart
That were made
From the ways
That he pulled me apart

You made it further than
The other men
I never gave a chance
But don’t make plans
For more then the weekend
You can be my man
But just for the evening
I got demons
And you don’t need them
Believe me baby you’ll be fine
You’ll love me forever
Until your mine

I’m afraid of the girl
That remains from his fire
Cant behave anymore
Since the flames have expired
Hold your breath
Guess your next
Picking boys to destroy
Since he left
I’m a mess
I suggest you avoid

You made it further than
The other men
I never gave a chance
But don’t make plans
For more then the weekend
You can be my man
But just for the evening
I got demons
And you don’t need them
Believe me baby you’ll be fine
You’ll love me forever
Until your mine

I turned the page
And left a note
Made believe I’m brave
And scribbled hope
Crossed out his name
For what I wrote
I cracked the code
I cracked the code
We were safe
Till I fucked your grudge
And came face to face
With who i was
You murdered love
You killed our love
You murdered love

You made it further than
The other men
I never gave a chance
But don’t make plans
For more then the weekend
You can be my man
But just for the evening
I got demons
And you don’t need them
Believe me baby you’ll be fine
You’ll love me forever
Until your mine

Who We Were

With the pain in his heart
And the blood on his hands
And the world looking darker
Than god ever planned
He was you
He was getting along
With nowhere to go but through
The man that I knew

With the pain in his heart
And a gun in his hand
He could tear you apart
And destroy where you stand
He can burn down your flag
Kicking dirt on your plans
He was lost he was damned
Only god understands
What to do
With the man that I knew

With the pain in his past
And his heart in a cast
He’s been moving along
With his face in a mask
And I know
He gets on by
He gets on by
Alone

And I know she’s lost in me
Hey torturer don’t torture me
I called to her in daydreams
And I fall for her cuz lately
I’ve been lonely hopefully
The man she sees
Ain’t more then me
Don’t break me babe
For loving you
I’ll do anything to escape
The man that I knew

With the pain in her heart
And his voice in her head
She can tear you apart
With the words that she says
She was you
She gets on by
She gets on by
Without you
The girl that I knew

With the pain in her heart
And a gun to his head
Just preparing her part
To destroy who I am
She can leave through the door
Leave the gun in the drawer
Leave me dead on the floor
Still our love would endure
She was you
She was you

And I know she’s lost in me
Hey torturer don’t torture me
I called to her in daydreams
And she answers that she hates me
I’ve been lonely hopefully
The man she sees ain’t more then me
Don’t break me babe for loving you
I’ll do anything to escape
The man that I knew

Burn

We rang the doorbell
And waited for answers
That never came
To save our day
Stayed till the floor fell
Gave into disaster
And was left out in the rain

Outside in the cold
We were told
That we’ll never get in
That the stories got holes
That were never filled in
You don’t wear the right clothes
That you need to fit in
You don’t write the right notes
Better hope they listen
This one’s too different
The last one fell short
Far from gifted
But too loud to ignore
Be a hoax be a fraud
Or a ghost in a song
In the cold we belong
But not for too long

Talk it over
Feeling better
Ever since
We’re under pressure
We’re not afraid
Of the stakes
And the weight of our worlds
You’ll know my name
My voice these words
When it gets cold
We still burn

We rang the doorbell
And waited for answers
Stayed till the floor fell
And shrugged off disaster
I don’t knock nice
Let alone twice
Won’t get goodbyed
Or denied from entrance
Success never came polite
Or over night so let’s rip
That door off the hinges
Will you stand between
What they want me to be?
I wont leave the scene
Till they incarcerate me
I’m all in
Than put out
I’ll say when
Don’t miss out
Can desire somehow
Murder your doubt?
Just cuz the fire burns now
Will you burn out?
Before we put a hole
In the door
That was in our way
In the cold we belong
But not past today

Talk it over
Feeling better
Ever since
We’re under pressure
We’re not afraid
Of the stakes
And the weight of our worlds
You’ll know my name
My voice these words
When it gets cold
We still burn

Till the clock
Strikes down on me
Imma burn
Till they bury me
In my debris
With no degree
Don’t wanna see
People like me succeed
Don’t count me out
Just yet I bet
I know what it takes
To get ahead
Again back on the edge
Of self destruction
If I lose my head
Was this all for nothing?
Standing up for something
These days brings you back luck
Catch a shooting in ya back
With ya fuckin hands up
Times are tough man
But I guess that they’ve always been
Ending up in the same place we began

Talk it over
Feeling better
Ever since
We’re under pressure
We’re not afraid
Of the stakes
And the weight of our worlds
You’ll know my name
My voice these words
When it gets cold
We still burn

Credits

– Written and performed by TJ Mercury
– Artwork By Chelsea Rae
– Produced, mixed, and mastered by multi-grammy award winner Mark B. Christensen (50 cent, Trey Songz)
– Vocal performances from TJ Mercury
– Vocal performances from Christina Dimaio
– Performances from Shawn Pelton on drums (Billy Joel, SNL, Ray Charles), Ben Butler on guitar (Chris Botti, Stevie Nicks), Bennett Paster on piano and synth, and Oscar Convers on bass guitar.
– Vocal production from Steven Esposito.
– A MercuryRae Production.

Stream on:

The Ghost That Haunts My Castle

Mercury and the Architect’s debut studio album, The Ghost That Haunts My Castle is an eleven chapter theatrical epic, featuring a world-renowned band of Architects, highlighting the mystical lyricism and artistry of TJ Mercury like never before.